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I wanna pull out my razor

I wanna pull out that razor
and run it along my wrist,
first just a shallow one, letting the blood pool,
then onto a deeper one,
until my forearm is covered in brilliant red pools.
My hands are week,
my chest numb,
my face a cermaic mask of happiness ,
for the outside world.
Can I do it?
Who will notice?
No one it's just me and no one cares.
So I'll go get that razor as soon as the lights go off,
as soon as they all go to bed, when its just me,
my razors and my sobs.


Sometimes
Just before I dig the blade in,
I wonder if anyone will stop me,
if there's anyone out there,
in my life who'd think of me and just say,
"I should text her or maybe call her"
Minutes after minutes I wait, for a helping hand,
a kind soul and all I get,
is broken hopes ….

Blood

See the blood before your eyes,
beyond all boundaries,
take my lies,
be satisfied,
because this does not concern you.
I need to find the person that made this picture, it aint mine.

Part 1
Part 2

and this is part 3
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:iconlucky-harajuku-cat:
lucky-harajuku-cat Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
im crying...
my friend cuts herself I want to help her so much
i have feel like this before never cut myself
i pull my hair out
it reminds me so much of the screaming pain in my heart i have
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:iconmidnightdream2:
midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011  Student Photographer
Oh hunnie pulling your hair out, is still self harm :/
*hug* I'm here for you ok.
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lucky-harajuku-cat Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
thanks.. but I want to help you too * huggies
i do pull my hair out but its not as bad as i used to be i have cheered up
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annikath Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
:cries: What a cruel and horrible place the world is... I'm to scared of hurting me... otherwise I'd do the same.... :( Well, anyways...
Beautiful written and very moving! :heart: I like it!

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:iconmidnightdream2:
midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011  Student Photographer
:hug: Dont ever hurt yourself =)
Not worth it.
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annikath Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I know. :) But I'm glad that you care.

Please keep up making your moving and beautiful art. :meow:
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ScaredValentine Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
So true and very close to what Im sure so many people think very nicely done
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011  Student Photographer
:hug: Thank you.
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ScaredValentine Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2011
Of course :)
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lakeyla10 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
Im a young ex cutter and reading this gives me the strenght to stop, thank you!
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011  Student Photographer
I'm glad ^^
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lakeyla10 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
Ty!! I cant help but to thank you!
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mikosamma Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
all of the poems in this are great and i know how you feel , i havent cut myself in weeks but i can feel myself slowly falling back into that dark little pit where i can clear my mind and every thing is better just by watchin the blood flow.... sometimes i regret t and other times i dont give a shit what people think... :b
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011  Student Photographer
I don't give a damn about people anymore.
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mikosamma Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
OK..
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Tsuki-Tai Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2011  Student Writer
i love it but yo know what i will beat you senseless if you ever try anything like that :(( PLEASE DONT!!!! :cries:

Good poem though loved the flow and the emotion in it
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2011  Student Photographer
I don't
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Tsuki-Tai Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2011  Student Writer
ohh :blush: well still awesome work
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willow1981 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
I use to cut when i was little before i really never understood, did it also while deployed to Iraq in 2003, and almost started to again while on my second deployment to Iraq 2005; that's when I found myself and stopped since. So I know how it feels somewhat :( Just recently though it's been getting harder though I've not. Anyways, I don't know why I'm telling you but this touched me :)
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2011  Student Photographer
Awww I'm glad it touched you :huggle:
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willow1981 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
[link] Here's something from mine :) :huggle:
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Wiz4si Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Student General Artist
Very sad... My sister used to cut and it`s becoming a fad at hundreds of schools. People are doing it from peer pressure. :(
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2011  Student Photographer
:nod: It happens alot these days, it's really a disgrace that we can't help everyone :no:
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Wiz4si Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2011  Student General Artist
ikr?
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GurRaeye Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow. Very emotional. It really makes me sad when I read or hear about cutting yourself. :(
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Student Photographer
It's gonna be ok :huggle:
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GurRaeye Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks :hug:
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Starlight-Sonic Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I love these. You've captured how it's like really well. =)
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Student Photographer
Thank you, personal experience to write form :aww:
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thedragonsghost Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011
The poetry, rhythm, and imagery are very good. the topic is, obviously, sad... I am the only person I know who thinks to do things like that, text someone to say hi, but usually no one wants to talk me anyway :p
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midnightdream2 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011  Student Photographer
:hug: Awww :hug:
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thedragonsghost Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2011
:hug:
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